Aaaarrrrgh!

OK, I feel better now. A little bit, anyway.

Thanks to all sorts of things going on for weeks now, I've pretty much only maintained my weight. Normally, that would be acceptable, but with my 25th anniversary situation coming up (more like "looming") in less than two months, I'm really wanting to give up any efforts at weight-loss at all. It just seems like it's too late.

My thoughts run something like this:

• "Two months! That's not long enough to have visible weight-loss unless I starve myself!"
• "Is there a way to avoid all pictures?"
• (Guilt, guilt) "Surely SOME weight-loss would be better than none, right?"
• "OMG, what will I wear???"
• "Why can I NOT get this under control?" (More guilt.)

I've been exercising like crazy this week, but I've not reduced the calories. It really, really, really has to be both for me.

So, I'm voting for "some is better than none," and I'm going to reduce those doggone calories and keep up with my exercise.

Maybe that will net me enough weight-loss to merit a new outfit . . . .and a neck-to-knees girdle!

4/19 Weigh-in and a BIG Motivation on the horizon

I am so loving this digital scale. Those tenths of a pound are fun to see. According to this wonderful scale, I am 6/10s of a pound DOWN. Woo hoo!

I'm going to pick up on the exercise this week and see if I can actually move BEYOND tenths to ACTUAL pounds. That would be nice.

In fact, I'd better get those pounds coming off just a little faster than that. One of those "life motivators" is staring me in the face.

August 3rd will be our 25th wedding anniversary. We are not outgoing people. We like to keep things low-key and pretty private. Much to my surprise (and chagrin), our pastor started talking to us from the pulpit during announcement time about this special event. THEN he announced that the church was going to give us a party. My smile froze.

You know what went through my mind? PICTURES. They will insist on taking PICTURES at this party. I just can't be the weight I am for those pictures!

I have exactly FIFTEEN weeks. If I can lose a pound a week, I'll be down to 173. If I step up the exercise, I might be able to make that 1 1/2 pounds a week. That would bring it down to 165.

CAN I DO IT???

I had my son make a sign that says, "August 3." I put it on the refrigerator.

CAN I DO THIS???

(Why, oh why didn't we get married in December?)